Inside Mental Health

Most people think "hearing voices" would be a nightmare symptom of mental illness, but for some, it feels more like a friendship. In the medical world, hallucinations and delusions are symptoms to be eliminated. But for Kit Wallis, the reality of living with schizoaffective disorder is far more complicated.

For years, she shared her life with her delusions, including Orion, a "sassy, funny, and supportive" internal voice who helped her study, hyped her up for exams, and ensured she was never truly alone.

In a culture that views psychosis through a lens of fear, Kit saw her symptoms as a lifeline. However, when a life-altering psychotic break required antipsychotic medication, the "recovery" came with a devastating price. As the medication began to work, her voices didn't just fade — they "broke up like a bad phone call." Kit didn't just lose her symptoms; she lost her closest friends.

Listeners will take-a-way:


Understanding the mourning process Kit experienced when medication worked to eliminate her hallucinations

Why the medical community often ignores the "positive" aspects of psychosis

Kit’s conflict surrounding wanting the voices back while knowing the importance of treatment


In this deeply personal conversation, host Gabe Howard and guest Kit Wallis explore the "hard dialectic" of mental health: the grief of getting well and the complicated mourning process that sometimes follows successful treatment. Listen now!

"No one really warns you about losing the good stuff, too … They just think, ‘Oh, psychosis is all bad. We want it all gone.’ But stories like mine aren't really out there very often." ~Kit Wallis aka SchizoKitzo

Our guest, Kit Wallis, who goes by SchizoKitzo, is a content creator who advocates for schizoaffective and bipolar disorders. She uses long-form videos on her YouTube channel and short-form content on platforms like TikTok and Instagram. Her content centers around her personal experience with schizoaffective disorder and often includes deep dives into research topics regarding mental health.

Kit was diagnosed with the bipolar type of schizoaffective disorder in late 2020 and has struggled with symptoms since she was in middle school. Schizoaffective disorder is a mental health condition where someone experiences symptoms of schizophrenia--such as delusions and hallucinations--but also symptoms of a mood disorder--either major depression or, in Kit's case, bipolar. Realizing there was a lack of schizoaffective advocates, she decided to start her SchizoKitzo project to raise awareness for this complex condition.

The mission of SchizoKitzo is to raise awareness of schizoaffective disorder and all of its aspects, from the mood side to the psychotic side. Kit works to bridge the gap between life and science so she can help break the stigma around mental health.

Our host, Gabe Howard, is an award-winning writer and speaker who lives with bipolar disorder. He is the author of the popular book, "Mental Illness is an Asshole and other Observations," available from Amazon; signed copies are also available directly from the author. Gabe is also the host of the "Inside Bipolar" podcast with Dr. Nicole Washington.

Gabe makes his home in the suburbs of Columbus, Ohio. He lives with his supportive wife, Kendall, and a Miniature Schnauzer dog that he never wanted, but now can’t imagine life without. To book Gabe for your next event or learn more about him, please visit gabehoward.com.
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In 2012, Jon McCann was sitting in a car weeping and preparing to end his life. He was struggling with a failing marriage, alcoholism, and a recent bipolar diagnosis that he feared was a "death sentence." Fast forward to today, and Jon—better known as "The Philly Captain"—is the subject of the Emmy Award-winning Netflix documentary “The Turnaround,” produced by Barack and Michelle Obama.

How does a man go from the brink of suicide to having a former President tell part of his story? It started with a single, viral act of empathy. When Philadelphia Phillies star Trea Turner was mired in a massive slump, Jon didn't call for boos; he called for "love love." He convinced an entire city to give a struggling athlete a standing ovation, proving that grace often achieves what "tough love" can’t.

Listeners Will Learn:

·  How supporting others helps silence your own inner critic

·  The accidental origin story of "The Philly Captain"

·  Turning unique hobbies into a healthy, stable routine

·  The difference between "love love" and “tough love”

In this moving and often hilarious interview, Jon joins host Gabe Howard to discuss the "story behind the story." He opens up about the terrifying moments of his mental health crisis, the power of a supportive family (including his mother’s bipolar awareness tattoo), and the life-changing realization that his story was worth telling. Whether you are navigating your own mental health journey or just looking for a reason to believe in yourself, Jon’s transformation from self-hate to self-worth is the inspiration you need to keep moving forward."The fact that (Barack and Michelle) Obama produced a movie (about me for Netflix), it made me believe in myself that I'm not a pile of garbage." ~Jon McCann, The Philly Captain

Our guest, The Philly Captain, aka Jon McCann, is a charismatic YouTuber, lifelong Phillies fan, and the unexpected face of a powerful mental health comeback story. Known for his high-energy vlogs across the streets of Philadelphia—from neighborhood deep dives to rowdy baseball recaps—he also carries a quieter truth: he almost didn’t make it. 

In the Emmy Award winning Netflix short documentary The Turnaround (produced by Barack and Michelle Obama via Higher Ground), viewers get a raw look at the moment he nearly ended his life—and the unlikely path that brought him back: connection, community, and a camera.

Today, The Philly Captain speaks openly about suicidal ideation, depression, and what it really means to fight

your way back when hope feels impossible. Blending brutal honesty, street-smart humor, and unfiltered heart, his talks leave audiences inspired, entertained, and more willing to speak their own truth.

He’s not a doctor. He’s not perfect. He’s living proof that survival is worth it—and that you don’t have to be fixed” to keep showing up.

Our host, Gabe Howard, is an award-winning writer and speaker who lives with bipolar disorder. He is the author of the popular book, "Mental Illness is an Asshole and other Observations," available from Amazon; signed copies are also available directly from the author. Gabe is also the host of the "Inside Bipolar" podcast with Dr. Nicole Washington.

Gabe makes his home in the suburbs of Columbus, Ohio. He lives with his supportive wife, Kendall, and a Miniature Schnauzer dog that he never wanted, but now can’t imagine life without. To book Gabe for your next event or learn more about him, please visit gabehoward.com.
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Most movies treat mental health like a plot twist—something dramatic, visible, and easily explained. But real depression and anxiety don’t work that way, and filmmaker Olivia Nash is determined to flip the script and show a more realistic portrayal.

In this episode, host Gabe Howard sits down with the actor, writer, and director of the indie film “Hi.” to tease out what it really means to portray mental health authentically on screen. The conversation goes beyond the film itself, diving into the realities of mental health in Hollywood, how Nash fostered open conversations on set, and what it takes to center people over productivity in an industry that rarely slows down.

Why You Should Listen


Discover how Nash’s personal experience with depression and anxiety changed her storytelling — and why that matters for audiences

Hear how Hollywood’s most common mental health tropes can do real harm, even when intentions are good

Understand why functioning, successful people are often the most misunderstood when it comes to mental health

Understand why authentic representation in pop culture can be life-changing for viewers


If you’re tired of seeing mental health reduced to stereotypes, or you’ve ever been told you “can’t be depressed” because you’re functioning, this episode offers a refreshing, validating perspective you won’t want to miss.“Mental health isn’t a plot twist—it’s just part of who people are.”~Olivia Nash, Hollywood Actor and Director

Olivia Nash is a multifaceted creative professional with extensive experience in acting,producing, directing, and production design. Based in Austin, TX, she has worked on awide array of projects across film, television, theater, commercials, music video, andowns the film production company, Fox Adrift Productions. Her versatility and passionfor storytelling shine through her collaborations with esteemed production companieslike Taylor Butler Productions, Fox Adrift Productions, Reed Street Films, David BittnerProductions, and Skeptical Optimist Productions.

As a Producer/Director, Olivia has helmed projects such as Toby (won for Best FemaleDirector at Palm Beach Shorts, Best Dramedy at Georgia Shorts Film Festival, and BestNarrative Short Film at Austin Under The Stars), Hi., and El Delirio. Her expertise inProduction Design is evident in works like The Gold Lament, Goodwill, Constellation,and The Last Pedal. In the commercial space, she has served as Art Director for HHSTraining Videos. She has also brought her creative vision to music videos, includingCobblestone Streets and Unknown to You.

Olivia's acting credits span leading roles in films such as Hickory, Hi., Meteor, and FGAas well as theater performances in productions like The Taming of the Shrew,Cinderella, and Booby Trap where she won best supporting actress. Her training inon-camera workshops, musical theater, and dance further complements her on-screenand stage presence.

With a distinctive aesthetic and expertise in styles like Boho Decor, Dystopian, CottageCore, Bloom Core, Dark Academia, and Fantasy, Olivia is skilled at crafting immersiveand evocative worlds. Her dedication to her craft and her ability to adapt to diversecreative challenges compliments her mission to bring to life stories that relate to thehuman condition, while allowing us to escape into a world of beauty.



Our host, Gabe Howard, is an award-winning writer and speaker who lives with bipolar disorder. He is the author of the popular book, "Mental Illness is an Asshole and other Observations," available from Amazon; signed copies are also available directly from the author. Gabe is also the host of the "Inside Bipolar" podcast with Dr. Nicole Washington.

Gabe makes his home in the suburbs of Columbus, Ohio. He lives with his supportive wife, Kendall, and a Miniature Schnauzer dog that he never wanted, but now can’t imagine life without. To book Gabe for your next event or learn more about him, please visit gabehoward.com.

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As therapy language floods social media, more people are associating friends, partners, and co-workers with mental health disorders, spotting “red flags” everywhere, and labeling regular human flaws as psychological abuse. In this episode, host Gabe Howard is joined by psychologist and author Dr. Isabelle Morley to unpack how therapy speak, short-form content, and armchair psychology are reshaping modern human interaction — and not always for the better.

For example, believing your ex is a narcissist might feel validating, but is it actually helping you heal, or quietly harming your ability to connect?

Listeners will learn:


why increased mental health awareness can both help and harm relationships

how “therapy speak” can shut down communication instead of improving it

what real red flags look like, and which behaviors require more context


Together, they explore the difference between true abuse and imperfect behavior, why nuance gets lost online, how misused labels end conversations, and what happens when everyone becomes an “expert” after a 3-minute video. If you’ve ever wondered whether awareness has crossed into overdiagnosis, or felt unsure where healthy boundaries end and pathology begins, this conversation will challenge how you think about relationships, self-reflection, and mental health education itself.



“Therapy terms don't need to leave the therapy room. They almost never need to be used in person in a conversation with someone. And people, I think, are using words to avoid more vulnerable connection . . .” ~Dr. Isabelle Morley, Author of They're Not Gaslighting You: Ditch the Therapy Speak and Stop Hunting for Red Flags in Every Relationship



Our guest, Dr. Isabelle Morley, is a clinical psychologist and EFT-certified couples therapist (Emotionally Focused Therapy). She is a contributing author to Psychology Today in her blog Love Them or Leave Them, where she analyzes on-screen romantic relationships. She is also the co-host of Rom-Com Rescue, a podcast that teaches life and love lessons from romantic comedies. She is co-author of Navigating Intimacy: An Introductory Guide to Couples and Sex Therapy. Dr. Isabelle is frequently sought out by journalists for expert commentary on topics such as relationships, couples therapy, and reality television, and has been featured in The New Yorker, The Boston Globe, Business Insider, Vox, and Very Well Mind, among others. In philanthropic work, Dr. Isabelle is a founding board member of The Unscripted Cast Advocacy Network (UCAN) Foundation, a nonprofit organization that supports reality TV cast members in accessing mental health and legal support and advocates for industry change.

Our host, Gabe Howard, is an award-winning writer and speaker who lives with bipolar disorder. He is the author of the popular book, "Mental Illness is an Asshole and other Observations," available from Amazon; signed copies are also available directly from the author. Gabe is also the host of the "Inside Bipolar" podcast with Dr. Nicole Washington.

Gabe makes his home in the suburbs of Columbus, Ohio. He lives with his supportive wife, Kendall, and a Miniature Schnauzer dog that he never wanted, but now can’t imagine life without. To book Gabe for your next event or learn more about him, please visit gabehoward.com.
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Narcissism has become one of the most misused words in mental health — and social media hasn’t helped.

In this episode, host Gabe Howard is joined by licensed marriage and family therapist Kati Morton to separate clinical reality from internet myth. Together, they break down what narcissistic personality disorder actually is, why confidence and disagreement don’t equal narcissism, and how terms like “gaslighting” and “love bombing” get distorted online.We answer common questions like:


Can people with narcissistic personality disorder learn empathy?





How can loved ones’ support change without sacrificing their safety or boundaries?





If narcissism is a mental illness, why do we have trouble feeling compassion for people who have it?






Finally, Gabe and Kati discuss whether people with narcissistic personality disorder can change, what meaningful treatment actually looks like, and how loved ones can protect themselves while setting healthy boundaries.

“If social media were accurate, narcissism would describe anyone who annoys us. But clinically? It’s something very different.” ~Kati Morton, author of “Why Do I Keep Doing This? Unlearn the Habits That Keep You Stuck and Unhappy”

Our guest, Kati Morton, is widely recognized as a leading mental health advocate and educator. She holds a masters in clinical psychology and is a licensed marriage and family therapist. She has a passion for education and empowerment and shares helpful insights through her YouTube channel. Kati is the author of three books “Are You Ok?,” “Traumatized,” and “Why Do I Keep Doing This? Unlearn the Habits Keeping You Stuck and Unhappy.” She hopes that by speaking candidly about mental health and encouraging viewers to reach out to get the support they need, we can remove the stigma associated with getting help.

Our host, Gabe Howard, is an award-winning writer and speaker who lives with bipolar disorder. He is the author of the popular book, "Mental Illness is an Asshole and other Observations," available from Amazon; signed copies are also available directly from the author. Gabe is also the host of the "Inside Bipolar" podcast with Dr. Nicole Washington.

Gabe makes his home in the suburbs of Columbus, Ohio. He lives with his supportive wife, Kendall, and a Miniature Schnauzer dog that he never wanted, but now can’t imagine life without. To book Gabe for your next event or learn more about him, please visit gabehoward.com.



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